Lammas

I have been busy 🙂 Kids on school holidays, husband off work.  Took some of my pixies to a craft fair. Baby turned 5.

I feel like I havent wrote in a long time.  My mam got me thinking about a children’s book I started a long time ago.  A story my dad used to tell me and my sister.  Now I tell it to my kids.  Its kind of magic faraway tree meets Grim’s fairy tales and tangos with the Arabian knights.  So anyway since it’s all in my head I guess the first thing is to actually write it down.  Then I might self publish it,, because ultimately the target audience is my future grandkids!!! as long as they get a copy I’m happy 🙂  This doesn’t fit very well with my dream of writing a dark and cruel fantasy novel does it? But I am a mother first and somebody said write what you know most about, I guess that is kids 🙂

Foxes

I never saw a live Fox until I was ‘grown up’. Now I have seen 4. One walking along the side of a MAIN Road during the day and 3 in and around my streets at dusk.  I do love them! even though they make a mess and eat the neighbours chickens! They fight and bark…noisy little terrors.

So Pretty.  New Header!!! yay! from Fenix Glim

A late Solstice

The wheel turns again and yet again time flies!

This time of year makes me want to look back, as well as forward.  I want to look at things and tidy them away into some kind of progress report for my life. You cannot go forward if you are looking back…unless you have eyes in the back of your head and we all know mothers do have that!

It continues to rain, and pour and we are having fantastic storms right now! English summer at its best 🙂

Craftwork

for a while now I have been making little odds and ends and selling them, mostly hats, gloves, shawls, scarves ect and little elves to babysit children (and grown ups!)
I am reluctant to link here, because, this is my private area, where I can forget about what others might think and I can say what I like! On facebook I do have a link to my shop, so anybody interested could email me, or something.

Anyway, I love to craft little things, big things are great too but they require focus which I only have after 8pm when all my little cubs are in bed or otherwise occupied.  So the little things are best to work on intermittently, I can pick them up when I have five minutes, put them down easily pick back up where I left off.
I was really thrilled when I found a customer had left great feedback in my shop!!! I always get positive feedback luckily but this was really nice, from a customer who had bought a hat from me and lost it, but loved it so much asked me for another.

“Lovely seller, very quick and straightforward to deal with – and I’m especially grateful because she agreed to make a new item on commission after I lost the first one!  The hat itself is great and very well made.  Recommended”

How lovely!!! it made me feel great 🙂

So my family is also quite crafty…well mam is a sewer, dad is musical, my sister is crafty with words and figures.  We decided to look into craft fairs,  locally there is not a lot to be found, by local I mean in my town.  So out-of-town we went, about 45 mins away up the coast and found a popular holiday seaside town with two craft fairs!
Had a look last week and chose one which seemed friendly and busy and lo we are booked!!!
In July we have a table and we will be selling things! Scary but exciting.  The weather has been lovely this week so I have sat out in my garden, in my fave spot next to my herbs knitting and crochet-ing to my heart’s content. Crafting outside is the ultimate in recharging my spiritual energy levels! as a druid anything I do in nature feels so much more enriching and satisfying.

I also ordered business cards to have on my table.  Feels odd but in a good way.

I don’t make much money for these things, in fact I usually get enough to cover yarn and not a lot more.  I wish I could price things properly, like I should, lots of crafters take the price of materials and then triple it, that covers time, then add-on for skill.  This is an ideal ratio, in these times, nobody would pay those prices, because people don’t understand how a pair of handmade  gloves could cost £15 when you could go to any big supermarket and get some for £2 which you could chuck in the wash! Its annoying but true.
So you have to make people think of the quality of yarn, organic british bred sheep, hand dyed with traditional dyes then spun by hand WILL cost more than acrylic made in china stuff.  It also helps keep small business alive, so many independent folk are struggling because of the mess this country/world is in.

So briefly, what Im saying is, email me or comment if you would like to see my work 🙂

Quirk

Sometimes I am just too ‘quirky’ for my own good! I never feel normal, never feel like I belong, never feel like I fit in with people around me.  Whats wrong with me? Im odd.  Most times I dont care, sometimes it hurts.  Who said I have to act like everybody else?

I feel like I am spiritualy lacking lately, I have not spent any time meditating or anything, I didnt even celebrate the turning of the year, Beltain, one of my fave times.  It just passes me by in a blur of school, fighting kids, sick kids, house work, knitting (for money, makes a change) watching brain numbing telly when I should be outside connecting. Life gets in the way of life!

I was commisioned a hat, I finished that in 4 days and sent if off.
I finished blocking my Red Shawl…very pleased with that 🙂

 

Knitting, and working with yarn IS a kind of meditation for me, or it can be If I am mindfull of what I am doing.  Lately it has been speed which took over rather than process.
Creating with really good yarn, which has been handspun AND dyed by hand, is a really good grounding experiance for me.  I loose myself in thinking about the hands the yarn has been in.  Plus the repetitiveness of knitting creates that still mind which is so relaxing.
Speed knitting a hat with cheap yarn for £8 is not.

‘missions

wow I am feeling very good right now! I just logged on to find a messege in my Folksy account, somebody who bought a hat from me has lost it an wants another made!!!!!! that means they MUST have liked it! and the best thing is, I LOVE knitting that damn hat! I have knit over 8 so far and still I am not bored of it!!! wooo, so on Monday I must go and get the right yarn and hope and hope that they still sell it in that colour…..

I almost made some excuse as to why I couldnt do it…Im really busy/cant get the yarn anymore.  I actually thought that! then I was what the?!!!!! its a bloody hat! you like to make it, its pretty quick, its only £8 (I really should charge more!) so do it!

My (almost) teenage son has a friend to stay tonight, they will probably stay up all night on xbox…hope they keep the noise down.  What with a husband snoring, waking me up when ‘I’ snore, four year old sneaking into my bed. I just dont get much sleep these days!

If In Doubt Wear Red

I dont know who said that…just sounds good.  In Ravelry there is an amazing group of crafty folk, called Bubbo’s Pants.  Now in the UK if something is Pants its crap…. but in the US it is amazing?…or its good? well it feels weird saying things are PANTS when they are great.  Anyway I digress, these lovely ladies (and men maybe) are so good at dishing out advice, mojo, help, just listening sharing everything.  I joined over a year ago and lurked, reading and never commenting.  Now I have finally de-lurked and I am addicted!

We are having a Pants-along which means you pick something to knit, crochet, weave ect and we all decide on a theme and everybody joined in with posting pics and its fun!!!

The Theme is Red…when you are going thru a period of transition or healing you need red in your life, its healing and positive energy helps with pain, loss,moving on, growth.  To actually knit (or craft) something from Red is magical. Like the ancient goddess’ who weave the threads of life and death.  Im getting too deep…so I have some squishy soft silk and merino yarn in a deep cherry red, Im knitting a shawl.  I may not ever wear the shawl, but I will have it as a talisman, a net of woven positivity, crafted by me, to protect me and nourish my soul.

If In Doubt Wear Red

Moongazing

The moon is full right now, and you can tell! The idiots on the roads/in the shops, EVERYBODY is an idiot! Cars right up your back end(of the car) cutting corners, cutting up, undertaking, near miss crashes.  I have seen it all today. If she wasnt so perfect I would hate that moon!

According to a site I found the moon is in Gemini, which means hightened changeability…ha well thats true.   Interesting fact Jack was bornthe day after a full moon(the moon is ‘full’ for 3 days and he was born on the second day…so it was still full really) I remember that, because it wasnt that long ago, so I think I now need to look the others up!!!

Here we go  J= full moon
B= First quarter(looks like half a moon in the sky)
M=Full Moon(end of full, 3 days after)
A=New moon

Thats really interesting for me…Im wondering now if this calander thing goes as far back as the 70’s…*looks* First quater…hmmm and M was born 3 days after a full moon.  Well that was fun!

Also both the boys have the moon in Aquarius and the girsl both have moon in saggitarious as do I…M is the odd one out with a taurus moon.

The Thinning ‘Vail’

On Facebook I have a person who I have followed (and she me) for years, I don’t know why, she followed an old blog of mine and that’s how I ended up following her back,  So Right from the beginning, when she first started to make podcasts I was there giving support to this person I don’t know, this stranger, she changed blogs, went on fbook and twitter, I followed.

She has a huge following now, has a crafty studio, sells e-courses, still podcasts her ‘followers’ love her.  I still keep up, but I have stopped commenting or interacting, the reason?…its silly and childish but she NEVER responds, people comment and she is like ‘thankyou! I love my peeps!’ I comment and some random piece of tumbleweed blows through the eerily quiet page’
Even when I commented about getting married/having my 40th birthday there was nothing.  It does seem childish but hey its how I feel so I’m bloggin it!
Maybe/probably she blocked me? Anyway she asked today If anybody could feel the Vail thinning… I wanted to answer but in leu of feeling like shit when she ignores it I thought here would be better.

At this time of year I do feel different, I feel closer to relatives passed over and I feel restless, like I have to do something, I never know what.
I can’t relax, my heart skips a beat now and then, I feel other people’s emotions, I get irritated when I am pacing around not knowing what I need to do to feel better.
I actually do know what I need to do, I need to meditate and ground myself, I need to connect with the earth outside, the moon and just well….breathe.  I just don’t find it that easy right now.  To be on my own is so lovely, to be somewhere quiet and not have people taking to me.
I had an amazing 60 mins on Wednesday.  I had to go re-register the owlets, now they have had their names changed, they needed new birth certs and that appointment took 60 mins.  But it was so lovely! I was on my own in an office with a pretty view, the lady was relaxed and kind, she asked me to confirm names and birthdays ect but nothing else.  She apologised for having to concentrate and not chat, but I told her I was happy just to sit! and feel the quiet, all I could hear was her tapping at the keyboard and the rustling of old papers…bliss.  It recharged me, and it lasted about 20 mins! ha! so yeah I need to sort myself out.

But speaking of ancestors, I had at my wedding 4 candles, representing my grandparents, I wished so much that they could have been there.  I bought coloured candle holders and decorated them with glass paint, I used symbols which had meaning for each of them but I also made them represent each of the elements/directions.  My wedding was very conventional, as my family are, but I wanted a piece of my druid in there too. Which is why I was so pleased with how beautiful the gardens were.

The other day we went on a ‘family walk’ 3 hours of trekking through the forest up and down a ravine! oh it was nice, and I got some lovely pics, we saw squirrels too.  I always enjoy these things more than I think.